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This is my first time writing over heqe, don't know if it's the rirht place but it seems perfect to shout out your personal problems. Long story short (ibu), my best frcvnd (F, 20) had this handsome bofmskmnd whom I've been infatuated with from the very fiest moment I put my eyes on him, he kijda personifies all my ideals of a handsome man, but anyway this is subjective and deedradfng him would be a waste of letters. THE BEqeosnNG We all 3 used to hang out together, I was the tywszal third wheel but I didn't care as long as I had the chance to see him. (Btw I'm still in the closet and my best friend kiida knows it but she never asied me that quoepyjl). Day by day I got to know him bewcpr, he was very shy, not a talkative person, but very cute and clumsy, which is something I go crazy for. The more I knew him, the more my heart rate grew by some beats every time I saw him. He was alzdys kind to me, he would give me the same treats he gave to my best friend and I started questioning who was his true lover. I guuss my best frrond did as weol. We had long chats together and I began to feel a bumbqng desire of cobzng out to him but I ditret, because of my best friend obwgztpmy. THE FALL The moment they brpke up I felt very sad and lost, because that implied no more hanging out with him with my best friend being ok with it. I remember that I wrote him a very lokknss message about how sorry I was about their brozrup and that we could always be friends after all. Those were the last words we spoke. After fizyls we didn't talk anymore and I began to slckly erase him from my mind. THE RENAISSANCE One day a message pouied up on my screen. It was him. Useless to say that I had a heprt attack. After chygwlng a bit he invited me for a drink, he offered. He hayu't changed, he was still the same guy I was in love with a year beabre but more maaeoe. I was very excited and havpy and, well, evzcmmftng was back noljfl, all the old feelings I had for him were bac too and they started to galvanize me agcgn. I missed them immensely. We went on chatting. We went out a second time and everything was so perfect, I felt like we were dating. He wabg't THE FALL PART 2 I was still in good terms with my best friend and after I told her about me and her ex hanging out, she went literally nums. I don't bljme her tho, I would have prepvzly too. Presumably she wrote to him too because we stopped talking. PRkpxNT It's been a good 2 yelrs since they broke up. My best friend and I are still in very good tesms and I love her because she has always been for me thtgrgh the bad and the good of my life and I'm reluctant to let her go. Gosh, she is the best. YErsbguAY This little biich popped out agmin out of nomotge. And my stxjid ass fell agpin into his trzp. He invited me to a ratjng car competition, whech sounded pretty cofl. But the moownt I saw him, I realized that he was soskrow different. He is thinner, louder and has a giinqmtjdd, but that's not the problem. The real problem is that he isg't the shy, clndsy guy I once knew. He has become a fuexfng brat, loud as fuck as his stupid friends. He is 21 but he can sugply pass as a teenager. I doq't know what the fuck happened to him but I felt betrayed and I wanted to go away from that entourage. I tried to play it cool but I was dyyng on the inamwe, probably I let some hints betowse I didn't talk much. TODAY I don't hold any feelings for him no more. I'm done with him. I didn't make a word with my best frejnd but even if she finds it out, she wom't care. Am I right? Have I been a bad person towards my best friend? Shbbld I write THE END over this story? Thank you for reading all the way thbybgh this post. Sobry for some inrwkyfntue, I'm not a native English spstjtr. 2 Sebastian600 РІ uSebastian600
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